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I am TASHA. i love my complicated life but i love GOD more, as HE never stop helping and loving me.. Likes: reading, singing, blogging, watching movie, SHOPPING :DDislikes liar, betrayer, studying, being quiet all the time (hahaha) Profiles: Facebook archives
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Rabu, 07 April 2010 @ 23.43
ruwet isi kepala gua ! blog.. my life has been so hectic lately i hate being busy, i dont like business :( it makes me become an awkward person haha.. simak UI hari minggu besok, gua belajar tapi somehow gua takuuut banget ga keterima.. gue pengen banget jadi dokter, GOD knows it.. tapi gue agak down aja sih ngeliat orang-orang lain yang jauh lebih pinter dari gue belom gue mesti belajar buat TO UAS dan UASnya pun hari senen besok.. sumpah pusing dan bingung banget mana yang harus dikerjain.. i'm calling GOD but i think i didn't spend enough time for HIM, then I feel HE's so faaar away :( kemaren gue berdoa lumayan lama dan cerita sama DIA semuanya, jujur gue lagi banyak masalah yang sebenernya gue ga bisa tanggung sendiri, tapi gue ga bisa cerita kesiapapun.. berasa ruwet aja semua dan otak gue tuh kusuuut... i believe that GOD somehow will make a way, and open the door again for me.. i've done many things in the wrong way and i'm begging for HIS forgiveness.. i wont be strong enough without HIM, i can do nothing without HIM.. i need HIM so baad :( not because i need something or i want something, but somehow, i just need HIM, HIS presence that i miss so much.. i spent my time too much for this damn simak UI and i'm getting desperate not smarter haha... i know this is not late, i still have time to repair my relationship with GOD.. HE's the most important in my life.. above anything else.. yeahh, that's true.. and when i reach home in minutes later, i'll call HIM 'til i meet HIM, i'll worship HIM with all i have and surrender my life to HIM.. this is what i should do instead of keep studying and i get nothing but a freak scream in my head.. i've been so stupid.. fight with my own strength.. totally stupid.. GOD i'm sorry, i need YOU and i want YOU above anything else.. hmmhh.. also i miss my Un.. it really surprised me when i woke up this morning and read a message from him, i remember what he said : the shortest word i know is I, the sweetest word i know is LOVE, and the person i never forget is YOU actually i wanted to reply it but i woke up soooooo late hahaha.. i just have time to take a bath, wear my uniform and ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuun like a wind! hahahahaha... but, today i run with a wide smile on my face.. i know today that i love him more! thanks GOD for giving me him... a person that i've never imagined.. he's never hurted me until now, never made me cry because my heart aches, but he made me cry because i'm so thankful i'm loved by him.. and i'm happy for it ! GOD, please take over my life and help me to get through every trouble in my life.. i know with YOU, i can do anything, everthing is possible, and i know i'm more than a winner :) |
